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Monday, 26 May 2008

  • why don't i want to do anything??? This is getting on my nerves... I sometimes don't accept my own attitude of this whole complication...

    crap...

    I am basically not doing work cuz I haven't thought through it? or it's just cuz i am not doing work... So many things bother me...

    What road should I take....

Thursday, 22 May 2008

Tuesday, 20 May 2008

  • Acceptence...

    Sometimes I wonder why it takes human being (i.e. me myself and I) so long to accept a fact that they cannot change. They lie to themselves, they think giving it time will help, etc etc. When in fact deep down inside, they are just in denial....  Really... what do you think about it?

    Today I finally accepted who I am, what I want to do, and where I am headed.... I am going to give myself 3 weeks to learn some time management skills, and regain some control over my consciousness again. After that, I'll give myself another 3 weeks to get back into the game... and people that knows me know what game I am talking about... =P...

    I been in denial long enough, it's time to work hard, play hard, plan my life, and make a difference... No buts, no ifs... and no more emoness (maybe occasionally, but let's be selective, and positive...)

    Cut the ties I need to make, work the hard hrs to catch up... why not right... I keep saying I can do this... well buddy, now is a good time to prove yourself. Get down to business... =)...

    ______________________

    I just want to thx people who encouraged me so much... you know who you are... although like almost none of you read this blog... =P...

    I also want to thx the people that made my life so difficult... because you guys also help me grow and realize many things....

    Life is amazing... because it will never stop throwing things at you...

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    On a different note, I met gallant today and wasted his time =P... sorry buddy... then what was I doing... don't remember, but talked about random stuff, apparently I do give off the impression that I expect a lot from people, the truth is I don't... not one bit... I just expect a lot from myself...

  • Friend Zone?

    Haha the friend zone, there's so much buzz about it, I thought I'll write something about it... seeing as 99% of my fds and buddies and so forth are male.

    I find the concept rather funny.

    People always talk about the ladder theory or whatever theory. I think there can be fdship with males, but the criteria has to be one of the following:
    1)  taken
    2) no physical attraction (imagine if you were trapped on an island for a couple of days, nothing would happen)
    3) Others, fair game...

    Other than that, I think fds can turn into any type of relationship, depending how the two people take it.

    I mean I have been fds with some people I find extremely attractive, but that is because I was taken, or they did not want to take it any further. It's not impossible for other situations to happen, but I find that hormones do take the best of you at times of vulnerability. It's just human nature....

    Because just being friends, you really got to set boundaries... if you don't care the type of relationship (I mean two people doens't just have to be dating or fds...) and don't worry so much about it... then things can be quite happy too...

    Jealousy becomes another issues, it's not that you don't want close male fds, but when they become a threat to your real, live in, for a while relationships, I think the choice becomes clear. After all, you can only spill your day, feelings, and heart to so many people at the same time.

    If you look back, I think the one you end up dating for real, is the person you talk to the most, and so wouldn't it make sense that you can only be closed to one at a time if you were dating.


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  • Failure is never an option. Friendship and love means more than anything to me. My life is definitely not happily ever after, there are problems to deal with, and things to fix, but I am happy and content that life is still challenging me. _____________ People come and go by your life, to make you a little different, it's up to you to decide, whether that is you, and whether it makes you life better. Thanks for those who came by and changed me. Whether things at the end has worked out, it really doesn't matter anymore, I'll always remember what happened. ______________ I am either very happy or sad, because either I really appreciate what's happening, or I am trying my full force to fight it.